So, recently I’ve had some time to think about this complex
word. I decided to look up the definition of perfect in the dictionary and
urban dictionary. This is what I came up with the dictionary definition
Perfect
1. Conforming absolutely to the description or definiton of an ideal type
2. Excellent or complete beyond practical or theoretical improvement
3. Exactly fitting the need in a certain situation or for a certain purpose
4. Entirely without any flaws, defects, or shortcomings
5. Accurate, exact, or correct in every detail
Urban Dictionary: an impossiblity, something unattainable, something that
cannot be reached..ever
So, basically urban dictionary is more
correct than the dictionary in my opinion. I mean yes, perfection is all of
those things in the dictionary definition, but the truth is perfection is unattainable, at least in this life. But, perfection is
almost a personal opinion because it isn’t exactly always used the right way.
As in oh, I found my perfect boyfriend. Or I found the perfect chair for my
living room. Really, even if something is perfect at that point in time, it
will eventually become imperfect or the imperfections will come to the surface.
But, when it comes to dealing with imperfections. You have to decide with parts
of something are more important to you than other things. What a difficult
process.
So, if
you’re one of those people that have read previous posts by me, you are
familiar with the name Palmer, probably too familiar. But, I’m far past all of
that stuff. But, I’ve kind of been thinking about it recently because he got
engaged last week. Good for him, good luck for her. But, I was just thinking
about how perfect I thought he was. How I thought he had no flaws
for YEARS. I knew him pretty well
and I still had no idea. I was blocked by whatever was going through my head
making me think he had nothing wrong with him. Even after my freak out and
being angry that summer I didn’t truly believe yet that he wasn’t perfect. He
clearly wasn’t to the outside eye and now years later to me he isn’t. But, at
the time I let him throw me around like a rag doll. I cried more over
him than I did anything else in my whole teen life. I don’t
blame him, in the end it’s my fault for letting it all keep going. But, I didn’t
care, I didn’t realize. In my head I think I just kept reminding myself of all
the good things and ignoring the bad. Which in most cases that is really good.
But, when the bad outweighs the good, that’s when you need to figure out and
decide what is really important. Well, that’s my rant about how despite what I
thought for so long HE IS NOT PERFECT.
But,
perfection is something that I think we all seek for in a spouse. I think this
is a bad idea. Because if we are going to seek perfection, we will never find
it and we will just continue to wait for nothing. No matter the person at one
time or another they are going to bother us and we are going to feel like we
want to just go crazy. But, that’s why we need to be careful to really get to
know people before we make such a huge commitment. Don’t we see all around us
just constant divorces? It’s crazy how often
people get divorced. A lot of that is also that people don’t know how to adapt
to imperfections. Its so important to understand that people are imperfect! I
cannot stress this enough. I know it might sound like I keep saying the same
things over and over again and that’s because I probably am but it’s TRUE.
Okay,
now to a different angle of talking about it. Perfection is something that we
are taught to strive for. So, really we’re striving for something that is
impossible to achieve! How depressing. We can strive for something and in the
end, we know we won’t get there. But, the real catch there is that just because
we can’t be perfect in everything all the time. Daily we can be perfect in
certain things. If we don’t take things day to day we have already failed. Daily we should say, hey I was perfectly kind
today. Or my thoughts today were perfectly pure today. Also, today could be the
day that you are perfect in your diet or in your exercise. Those are all things
worth recognizing! Then, even to top it off in our next life, we will be able
to achieve perfection! We will be able to go through our lives striving for
perfection then we will get to that point where we will be able to achieve all
that we've wanted to. We just need to not get frustrated now. We need to work
hard every day to achieve those things we wish to achieve. HARD WORK WILL ALWAYS PAY
OFF. I promise. So even though for now it’s unattainable it
doesn’t mean that that we should stop trying.
Now,
where the HECK did this come from right? Why am I talking at you readers all of
a sudden? I have absolutely no idea. I just really wanted to talk about
perfection and it somehow came out like this. I don’t really understand why or
how it happened, but it did. But, I’m still going to connect this to my blog.
Right now I’m just having a few issues realizing what I need to do in my life.
I’m feeling far from perfect. I know I’m not getting into BYUI’s nursing
program and I’m sort of afraid to apply to other nursing schools even though I
know it is what I want. But, even though I may feel like a failure for a bit, I’m
still super happy. So many things are going great in my life right now! I have
so many blessings, so many amazing people around me, and great opportunities
ahead of me. I’m excited for what the future holds and I’m excited to continue
to every day CHOOSE HAPPINESS :D
