So, I haven't posted this WHOLE SEMESTER. It's kind of sad, but completely excusable. I have been more busy this semester than any other semester my whole college career. I'm not sure why, but I have ridiculous amounts of homework. So, pretty much I'm either at class, work, at home doing homework, or breaking boys' hearts. It's been so hard. I feel like boys keep perusing me and I keep not wanting them to pursue me. I'm not interested in any relationship at all. I don't just say that either, it's not one of those with an exception. My life is so crazy busy I don't have the time for a relationship! I'm sorry boys, but this girl is staying single, unless you REALLY think you want a girlfriend that will never be around, like ever. Trust me, I'm not worth it. I'm in such an emotional state that it doesn't even matter just about everything I have a hard time connecting to. My emotions are about shot from the year I have had. But, it's alright I'll make it through I'm pretty sure. 2012 sure will be a year I'll remember forever. So many life defining experiences have shaped me into who I am this year. With falling in love, almost getting engaged/married, my health issues, my busy schedule, being so poor I don't go grocery shopping for weeks, having friends total my car and having to go through a period without one then having to go through the process of getting a new one, sort of reverting to my old quiet self, breaking hearts, finding so many things to be insecure about, and so much more. It's been absolutely insane. In a way I want to just get rid of all the memories so I don't have to know so many things that have happened. How can so much change in just one year?! I can't believe it!
It's too bad that this semester seems to be so different from all the rest. I have friends, but not many because I have basically no time to hang out with anyone. So, hanging out with people really isn't in the picture. It's been really rough. In the past I have been known as the "man stealer" I made up the title because I don't know how else to describe it. Basically my roommate and I have very similar taste in men and whenever she likes a boy and he comes over to our apartment for whatever the reason the boy begins to be interested in me, then it just creates a big drama fest whether or not I'm even interested in the guy. It's been brought up so many times this semester I can't help but constantly think about it. So, this semester I haven't even been invited to hang out with my roommates much. Which in a way is good because then I have more time to do my homework alone without distractions. But, also as of last weekend 3 of my roommates got boyfriends. If you are not aware of BYU-I living arrangements that is half of my apartment. There are 3 bedrooms and one roommate in each room got a boyfriend last weekend, Either Saturday, Sunday, or Monday. So, it's been extra lonely. But, it's alright because I press on. I may not always have a smile on my face, but I assure you I am happy deep down somewhere. Don't take this section about boys make you think that I want a relationship though. Truthfully I just want roommates that can be my friends and stay my friends. Or boys that will hang out with me and not want to date me eventually for once. This goes back to an older post of mine. GUYS AND GIRLS CAN BE FRIENDS. Guys just have to make it complicated and choose not to be friends with girls they aren't interested in. Especially the boys with extremely high dating standards. It's just hard to be unattractive sometimes, or to be a friend to a guy who wants much more than friendship. Sometimes I just want to scream.
Sheesh, it's official I'm a rambler. But, this time it was mostly on purpose because I got sick of not seeing any new posts on my blog. Someday I'll get more deep posts going again. But, most likely not anytime soon especially since now I'll be working 36 hours each week, plus my classes and homework = NO LIFE or time to blog. Anyway, I choose happiness :)
It's too bad that this semester seems to be so different from all the rest. I have friends, but not many because I have basically no time to hang out with anyone. So, hanging out with people really isn't in the picture. It's been really rough. In the past I have been known as the "man stealer" I made up the title because I don't know how else to describe it. Basically my roommate and I have very similar taste in men and whenever she likes a boy and he comes over to our apartment for whatever the reason the boy begins to be interested in me, then it just creates a big drama fest whether or not I'm even interested in the guy. It's been brought up so many times this semester I can't help but constantly think about it. So, this semester I haven't even been invited to hang out with my roommates much. Which in a way is good because then I have more time to do my homework alone without distractions. But, also as of last weekend 3 of my roommates got boyfriends. If you are not aware of BYU-I living arrangements that is half of my apartment. There are 3 bedrooms and one roommate in each room got a boyfriend last weekend, Either Saturday, Sunday, or Monday. So, it's been extra lonely. But, it's alright because I press on. I may not always have a smile on my face, but I assure you I am happy deep down somewhere. Don't take this section about boys make you think that I want a relationship though. Truthfully I just want roommates that can be my friends and stay my friends. Or boys that will hang out with me and not want to date me eventually for once. This goes back to an older post of mine. GUYS AND GIRLS CAN BE FRIENDS. Guys just have to make it complicated and choose not to be friends with girls they aren't interested in. Especially the boys with extremely high dating standards. It's just hard to be unattractive sometimes, or to be a friend to a guy who wants much more than friendship. Sometimes I just want to scream.
Sheesh, it's official I'm a rambler. But, this time it was mostly on purpose because I got sick of not seeing any new posts on my blog. Someday I'll get more deep posts going again. But, most likely not anytime soon especially since now I'll be working 36 hours each week, plus my classes and homework = NO LIFE or time to blog. Anyway, I choose happiness :)
