Perfection

So, recently I’ve had some time to think about this complex word. I decided to look up the definition of perfect in the dictionary and urban dictionary. This is what I came up with the dictionary definition
Perfect
1. Conforming absolutely to the description or definiton of an ideal type
2. Excellent or complete beyond practical or theoretical improvement
3. Exactly fitting the need in a certain situation or for a certain purpose
4. Entirely without any flaws, defects, or shortcomings
5. Accurate, exact, or correct in every detail

Urban Dictionary: an impossiblity, something unattainable, something that cannot be reached..ever

So, basically urban dictionary is more correct than the dictionary in my opinion. I mean yes, perfection is all of those things in the dictionary definition, but the truth is perfection is unattainable, at least in this life. But, perfection is almost a personal opinion because it isn’t exactly always used the right way. As in oh, I found my perfect boyfriend. Or I found the perfect chair for my living room. Really, even if something is perfect at that point in time, it will eventually become imperfect or the imperfections will come to the surface. But, when it comes to dealing with imperfections. You have to decide with parts of something are more important to you than other things. What a difficult process.

                So, if you’re one of those people that have read previous posts by me, you are familiar with the name Palmer, probably too familiar. But, I’m far past all of that stuff. But, I’ve kind of been thinking about it recently because he got engaged last week. Good for him, good luck for her. But, I was just thinking about how perfect I thought he was. How I thought he had no flaws for YEARS. I knew him pretty well and I still had no idea. I was blocked by whatever was going through my head making me think he had nothing wrong with him. Even after my freak out and being angry that summer I didn’t truly believe yet that he wasn’t perfect. He clearly wasn’t to the outside eye and now years later to me he isn’t. But, at the time I let him throw me around like a rag doll. I cried more over him than I did anything else in my whole teen life. I don’t blame him, in the end it’s my fault for letting it all keep going. But, I didn’t care, I didn’t realize. In my head I think I just kept reminding myself of all the good things and ignoring the bad. Which in most cases that is really good. But, when the bad outweighs the good, that’s when you need to figure out and decide what is really important. Well, that’s my rant about how despite what I thought for so long HE IS NOT PERFECT.

                But, perfection is something that I think we all seek for in a spouse. I think this is a bad idea. Because if we are going to seek perfection, we will never find it and we will just continue to wait for nothing. No matter the person at one time or another they are going to bother us and we are going to feel like we want to just go crazy. But, that’s why we need to be careful to really get to know people before we make such a huge commitment. Don’t we see all around us just constant divorces? It’s crazy how often people get divorced. A lot of that is also that people don’t know how to adapt to imperfections. Its so important to understand that people are imperfect! I cannot stress this enough. I know it might sound like I keep saying the same things over and over again and that’s because I probably am but it’s TRUE.

                Okay, now to a different angle of talking about it. Perfection is something that we are taught to strive for. So, really we’re striving for something that is impossible to achieve! How depressing. We can strive for something and in the end, we know we won’t get there. But, the real catch there is that just because we can’t be perfect in everything all the time. Daily we can be perfect in certain things. If we don’t take things day to day we have already failed.  Daily we should say, hey I was perfectly kind today. Or my thoughts today were perfectly pure today. Also, today could be the day that you are perfect in your diet or in your exercise. Those are all things worth recognizing! Then, even to top it off in our next life, we will be able to achieve perfection! We will be able to go through our lives striving for perfection then we will get to that point where we will be able to achieve all that we've wanted to. We just need to not get frustrated now. We need to work hard every day to achieve those things we wish to achieve. HARD WORK WILL ALWAYS PAY OFF. I promise. So even though for now it’s unattainable it doesn’t mean that that we should stop trying.  

                Now, where the HECK did this come from right? Why am I talking at you readers all of a sudden? I have absolutely no idea. I just really wanted to talk about perfection and it somehow came out like this. I don’t really understand why or how it happened, but it did. But, I’m still going to connect this to my blog. Right now I’m just having a few issues realizing what I need to do in my life. I’m feeling far from perfect. I know I’m not getting into BYUI’s nursing program and I’m sort of afraid to apply to other nursing schools even though I know it is what I want. But, even though I may feel like a failure for a bit, I’m still super happy. So many things are going great in my life right now! I have so many blessings, so many amazing people around me, and great opportunities ahead of me. I’m excited for what the future holds and I’m excited to continue to every day CHOOSE HAPPINESS :D