March Happiness Day 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, and 23

Day 17 Monday was a good day. We had a decent schedule at work so it went pretty well. But toward the end of the day I started getting a headache. Then, by the time I got home my head was killing me. Luckily, my mom and dad are great at helping me. They helped me make it through the evening. I hate these things. They are hard. I'm just so grateful it isn't 2012 and I'm not dealing with them everyday and normally my headaches are  bearable. Days like this are few and far between. Making the good days even better. :) 

Day 18 it wasn't the greatest day in the world. But, I did get to buy Frozen! So that was pretty exciting :) it's really an awesome movie. Even though it was a long day of homework, work, and looking terrible I survived. 

Day 19 work was pretty good with all of the late starts. The day kind of dragged but it didn't really matter. I went visiting teaching at orange leaf, then Marissa Chris and I caught up on our tv shows. 

Day 20 frizzy hair day I guess is what this was. Jeremy, Carrie, and all the kids came into town for the end of their spring break to hang out and go to Austin's baby blessing on Sunday. We just had fun being together and watching march madness upsets. It was also spent with me freakinnf out about homework.  

Day 21 this photo wasn't actually taken Friday because I forgot to take one. But it was a pretty rough day at work. I was in extended stay with a lazy worker and I was being pretty lazy myself because I wanted to keep checking the scores of basketball games. Onces creighton was done playing I was a little better at focusing but before that I was pretty slow moving. Basically I was just made I had to be at work. But, after work I hung out with everyone. That was fun. We all watched Frozen together.

Day 22 Well I was a moody mess all day. From little problems to big I couldn't seen to control my emotions. It's making me think I need to switch medications. We'll see if it continues or not. It could have just been sleep depravation too I don't really know. We all went to see the muppet movie, went to spaghetti works for lunch (we brought grandma), and we had a mini concert with everyone at grandma's nursing home. Spencer played his tuba, Brianna played the piano, the kids sang a few songs, grandma played a few songs on the piano for us to sing along to, and josh sang solos with me and grandma playing for him. Josh and I ended our day by going to a young single adult activity. We skipped out on the scavenger hunt which looked really fun but afterward was a pretty decent dance. I even met a few people I wouldn't mind talking to again. If only I wasn't so socially awkward. Darn it. I've lost it over the years. Too much work and not enough play! 

Day 23 today was wonderful. A little drama this morning but these days it doesn't effect me and I try to get out as soon as I can see it. My nephew Austin was blessed and we were able to get my grandma to church with all of us for it. We filled two rows in the Gretna branch today. :) the spirit was so strong. I loved seeing all my family members get up to go stand in the circle. It was wonderful with all us ladies just sitting with the few younger boys. Even spencer was involved. He was able to hold the microphone. I would be lying if I said I didn't tear up a little. It's beautiful what Heavenly Father helps His children create. It reminds me that I need to be better preparing for possibilities of a marriage and family coming somewhere down the line. Creighton lost tonight it was pretty sad how off they were today. After the game we just cheered up by watching Once Upon A Time. I choose happiness :) 

March Happiness day 16

Today was hard. This is an end of the day photo. So it helps put a visual to a rough day. Details in tomorrow's post because I need to get to bed. But I am going to bed happy. I choose happiness. :) 

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March Happiness Day 14 and 15

So Friday was great. I got off work early. Spent some bro sis time with Josh. Had a birthday dinner for my dad and some fun at home with everyone afterward. We also enjoyed the creighton game :) 

Saturday started with the girl we were supposed to visit teach canceling on us :( well it happens. Then I caught up ok things around he house like laundry and weekly cleaning. I'm considering a house purchase in my future.... Just throwing that out there. Then, Marissa and I went to the outlets where I got a bunch of free clothes ;) thank you couponing and smart shopping! One day my future family will be grateful. Don't worry I didn't end up leaving the house with the big statement flower on... I'm too afraid of big statements I guess. We had an interesting day when Chris joined us. But that's cool. We had fun. I saw my grandma doe the first time in awhile and I realized I'm afraid more than anything of losing her. As much as I would love to leave Nebraska I'm afraid of losing her. :( I love her so much and cherish my time with her so much. The night ended with an unfortunate loss by creighton.  I didn't score a couch seat so I was on the floor rocking back and forth a lot of the game. I would jump up, sit down, scream, yell, and smile. But, man Providence is a fiesty team. The refs weren't calling fairly. I felt like the only person that was on their game today is the to be expected McDermott and they were guarding him so well. It was so sad that I had to stay up to watch some happy tv. But I surely choose happiness :) life is good. 

March Happiness Day 11, 12, and 13

Day 11,12, and 13 sorry. I failed again. I'm trying to get used to having my new classes and got really caught up and stressed with work and juggling. But, it's been a rough few days and I haven't been as smiley as normal. I'm going to change that starting. Now. Especially since everything I had to be stressed about is over. Still took photos. It's funny how you can't see the crazy behind my eyes and my smiles. But, my head was going a little crazy. But right now it feels so good to know I'm caught up, can breath, and go to bed :) I choose happiness. 

March Happiness day 7, 8, 9, and 10

Well... Clearly I haven't posted all weekend. But, I was busy living. Which is much more important. It was lovely. 

Friday: I had an early day and a slightly rough day at work. But the fact I got off at 2 was lovely. Marissa and I headed to Rochester and had the best drive ever. Really! I drove fast and it was smooth :) our stop was nice and nothing crazy happened. Well of course except for the snow drifts that just got bigger the further north we went and the 7 flipped abandoned cars on the road, who knows how long they had been there. We got there talked to everyone and had a blast. Then we watch catching fire :) made for a lovely evening. I fell asleep in the first movie in a longgggggg time because I generally get plenty of sleep so it doesn't effect my movie watching. That day I had been up for about 20 hours. Yeah, I was shot. 

Saturday: lovely day! Filled with meeting people running into Kyle Warner at mall of America (he is someone I know who lives in Nebraska...insane right?!) hanging  around Minnesota just loving life and eating wonderful food! :) yay for shopping without sales tax!!!! 

Sunday: church. Tours. Walking. Art. It was lovely. I had a grumpy moment but I think it was just from lack of sleep. I'm never lacking sleep anymore. So once again that became a huge issue. 

Monday: I survived work and it wasn't hard to do so. Had Mings, outside I might add!!! It was the most gorgeous day ever. It was an absolutely beautiful day. It was in the 70s the great weather was marvelous for my mood ;) not that it needed much help. I went to Fhe even. Two weeks in a row. I'm feeling pretty impressed with myself. Now I just have to make it to kickboxing this week. :) I know this is all short. But literally the weekend was just wonderful all around. It have me amazing moments to reflect on myself quite a bit. Especially during Marissa and I's long talks in the car on the way there and on the way back. So a total of 10ish hours of talking. We literally wouldn't even pause. I just loved it all! :D I may not always look it or know how to express my emotions. But I am happy! I choose happiness!! :)

March Happiness Day 6

I had a lovely day today. I went to work at 530 (photo was taken at 430 am. I'm so awake as you can tell). It was a busy day, but it was one of those days where I could just smile and then my lead let me change my shift to 530-2 again tomorrow so we can leave earlier tomorrow. So I got off earlier than usual and was able to get ready for my trip a little bit. It was a good, I got my books for my classes starting tomorrow, did some shopping and got groceries. Being productive always seems to equal happiness. I love it. I even did my nails tonight and had a lovely nap. Once upon a time in wonderland is back on and I'm pretty excited. I choose happiness. 

March Happiness Day 5

I almost didn't make it for the day because I was surprisingly busy all day. Went to work and it was a pretty crazy day but went surprisingly smooth. I'm telling ya, a good mood can go a long way! :) then toward the end of the day I started feeling like it was going to pass out again. So I was. Little worried I wouldn't be able to go out with the sister missionaries teaching tonight which I have been looking forward to. But I prayed and made sure I got through the emotional struggles as I was ending work, I got home and ate. The Lord answered my prayer and I felt better. In fact it was a lovely evening with the sisters. In fact, I wish they just lived here. Maybe I could actually find genuine unmarked friends that don't drink. Haha. But anyway, so then I got home and Marissa and Chris came over for our bi-weeklyish tv vegging together watching our lovely shows. We had a blast and I'm getting more excited about going on the road with Marissa this weekend! So stoked!!! :D anyway I'm in a rush to get to bed with an early shift tomorrow. But I found this article and I have to post it because today was one of those days I was feeling extra introverted. http://thoughtcatalog.com/laitin-amanda/2014/02/10-confessions-from-an-introvert/#5g3BTZIguFvhyGsY.01

Seriously, these are all so true. I have denied it a lot but I'm so introverted and I've finally accepted it. One day, I'll find others who understand me. Wow that sounds cliche. I choose happiness. 

March Happiness Day 4

Today was different for me. This is the first time I've gone to work later than 9am in a long time. So I spent my morning vacuuming my car and being boring as always. When I got to work it was surprisingly smooth from the moment I got there until the moment I came home. Okay, it wasn't perfect but honestly it was so good that these bad things I'm going to list didn't even feel like issues. So I was sending a urine sample to specimens and we have to send them through a tube system (just like the bank, just much longer tubes and it goes throughout the hospital) so about 10 or so minutes after I sent it up we receive a call from specimens. A coworker answered the phone and I don't know what they said because she was so calm. A few minutes later I let her know that I forgot to tell her about me sending the sample. So she calmly says oh yeah we need another sample the one you sent the lid wasn't on right and it spilled on it's way over there. They had to shirt down the tube system for maintenance. I was shocked! I didn't believe her because she was so calm about it and I send samples up all the time and clearly that had never happened before! It was so nuts. Basically, I provided a few people with some job security today accidentally. I felt so awful but we couldn't help but make it into a joke the whole time. It was just too crazy to even be real, but don't worry it was. In my own defense the patient put the lid on the container, but I did fail to check it even though the container was upside down on the biohazard bag I had it in and wasn't leaking. So the mystery remains how and why the whe thing happened. But it did. Then, later I found out an ice cream I gave to a patient was expired in September. Talk about awkward. It was the only one in all the boxes we had in the freezer the ONLY ONE. Are you kidding me? The one I hand out to the patient. Luckily the patient was such a nice lady and she was fine just wanted to make sure we knew so another patient wouldn't have an issue. Amazing. I guess I needed a reminder that I'm very human. Well, it worked. That's totally fine. I needed it. :) I choose happiness. 

                                

March Happiness Day 3

Today was a great day. I was blessed with a smooth day at work and I made myself stay in Omaha after work so I could go to FHE. Surprisingly the activity was a blast. Especially for it just being jeopardy. I think we had the best team. We started chanting the yes! Like from wwe. I feel obligated to show a video of it now. Our team was the best. :) good times. I guess today it really wasn't so hard to be happy. It could have been so much worse. A lot of things could have been worse. I choose happiness. 

                  


                                 

March Happiness Day 2

Well, I've already decided that I don't want to do the previous day. I will mostly be blogging in the evening after the day is almost over anyway. So, half of this post will be about yesterday and half about today. But, from here on out I'll only be covering one day for my March happiness. 

Yesterday I cleaned a lot and everything isn't clean yet. I still have some things to go through in my room, but that's okay. I spent another part of the day catching up on my comedy shows, including the new Late night with Seth Meyers and Jimmy Fallon on the tonight show. So funny. I love sitting around and laughing watching those shows. Laughing is the greatest medicine! Not that I was sick yesterday, but it really is a great mood lifter. Then, last evening just as it was beginning to snow, I went to the UNO hockey game last night. It was a BLAST. It was a close game and those are always better. They won in overtime and we were lucky enough to be right by where the winning goal was scored. There was some drama in the middle of the game too where a player from the opposing team didn't feel like he should have had a penalty called against him so he threw a little fit and got himself kicked out for 10 minutes. I don't understand the rules of hockey so I don't know what it was that actually happened. The section we were sitting in was composed of mostly an older crowd unfortunately. But, it reminded me how much I want to attend many sporting events this year. I did have some nail biting moments during the game but overall I was just smiling and enjoying every second! After the game, it wasn't snowing anymore but the road was really slick! Josh drove his car, and although it's brand new it doesn't get around too well in the snow. I ended up having to run out in the snow in the middle of dodge. It was pretty funny because I was in boots and not snow boots, needless to say I was slipping all over the place. I felt like a damsel in distress of some sort. Then, all of a sudden 4 (very attractive I might end) men came to my rescue. Two of them had pulled their car over to help and one was right behind us in an SUV. It was fun having them help me and not do much better than I was because it was so slick. We all had a pretty good conversation as we struggled up the hill. It was fun. :) I'm just grateful we were stuck on a hill and not stuck in an accident with the conditions we were dealing with last night. It was a good change from my usual Saturday nights.  

                       

Now, onto today. It was not the warmest day ever imagined, but thank goodness for heat, tights, and boots! This morning I spent at my Grandma's. She wasn't feeling the best today so I struggled to hold conversations with her. Lately she has been telling me I need to stop hanging around with her so much and get something exciting to do with my life! This almost offends me. I don't have anything I'd rather be doing. I really would like to be spending my spare time with her. I don't know if she's sick of seeing me or if she feels like she's a burden. She is blunt, but she isn't always specific in her bluntness. So, that was good, but it could have been better. I hope she spent the afternoon resting and is feeling better tomorrow. Then, I went to church. It was a beautiful day at church today. Melody taught a lesson on the opposition that satan has in our lives. It was strengthening. She wasn't feeling well at all and you could tell, but the room still filled with the spirit! Then, in sacrament meeting it was really amazing. I love fast Sundays in general, but seeing the children get up and bear their testimonies always makes me happy. The spirit is amazing when they speak of wonderful truth! I love everything about their testimonies. Then, the rest of the members that bore their testimonies were just head on. With the spirit I was filled with there was no way I could ignore the fact that my head was pounding out of my chest begging me to get up there. So, I got up and of course started getting emotional. But, I was truly grateful for the opportunity to feel that strong spirit that you feel when you share your testimony. I can't wait until later this week where I can go out with the sister missionaries later this week. I know that will also be a wonderful spiritual experience. Well, this photo looks off but I'm not entirely sure why. But, this is the photo of the day. I choose happiness.  

                                        

March Happiness

Well, I'm challenging myself to be happy every day in March. I was going to do the 100 day thing that everyone is doing but I kinda wanted to make up my own too. Kinda like March madness (which I'm way stoked for this year! I've been watching all the games I can so far and I'm ready!!! Go Creighton! ;) or anyone but Michigan State!) not really all that clever. But also more attainable to actually blog daily for 31 says rather than 100 with my track record. I'm going to take a bathroom pic every day. I'm willing to bet this is the only day I look half decent. I never get ready anymore. But I may end up incorporating "getting ready" as part of my goals. Meh. We'll see. Anyway. Each day I will blog about the previous day. So today I'm just explaining it all. I choose happiness.

                                      

                                     

Close up! My nose doesn't look too broken here it makes me really happy!! :) HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!

Some thoughts

http://thoughtcatalog.com/kate-bailey/2013/12/10-old-fashioned-dating-habits-we-should-make-cool-again/

Hurt

So, I'm just going to straight up share my story. I've been dating a guy for a little while now. But, I have known him for even longer. So, it wasn't really necessary to "take things slow in the beginning". There wasn't much talking, we just basically started going on dates. We had a great time when we went out. We have a lot of chemistry. His only problem. He's not a member. I guess the reality of him not being a member became apparent last week at my work party. He had a sip of rum. To the world it's just a sip of rum. To me, it was a reality check. We may not have kissed yet (multiple reasons for that), but we did have a connection and to the outside world we looked like we were together holding hands. I wasn't just going to let it pass from my mind and all week I couldn't let it slip. We had a great time last night and today we went shopping. Afterward we were driving back and I started talking out of the blue (I wasn't even thinking about it!) about how I hate dating and don't like how he isn't mormon. It's really interesting how the Lord works. I've been praying to understand how to get over my feelings for him or find a way to make it work the Lord's way. I think I figured out that really it was just something I needed to get through. He made me happy, we had a great time together, he had good values, but he didn't believe and understand the gospel. Holding the priesthood has always been at the top of my list for "the perfect husband". He would always talk about how the purpose of dating is worth the risk and that you never know if your prince or princess is right in front of you. He wasn't saying I was his princess and he didn't say it in that context, but he was right, the purpose of dating is to find someone to spend the rest of your life with, regardless of what the rest of the world believes. To him, right now this seems really unfair. He is upset with me because he knows that I knew I wasn't going to marry him from day one of meeting him. He doesn't understand why I even dated him in the first place. Faith doesn't just change attraction. When you have so much interaction with someone it's hard to resist the connection you have. I feel horrible for what place he is in right now. But, I know it was what was best for me. My testimony was strengthened through this experience. I realized how important eternal marriage is. I want those blessings stated in my patriarchal blessing. I want to be able to return to my Heavenly Father one day and say I did what you asked, I followed the path you paved for me. I want him to embrace me and say, I know it was hard but I'm glad you did it. I didn't know I needed to better understand the importance of eternal marriage to my personal life but I think I did. It was a rough thing for me to even date with how big of an introvert I have become, but I think the outcome is good. I'm grateful for this little piece of strange added to my life. I choose happiness. 

The Best

Days like today, they need to be documented. I'm just going to list all of the things that were amazing today instead of trying to make everything flow through sentences. 

I woke up on the right side of the bed

I was able to work and worked with amazing co-workers

Patients were overall good today 

Lunch was free and it was from Jason's Deli... AMAZING

I got out of work almost on time

I found out my car is going to be fixed before Christmas

I found out I'll be getting $500 BACK with however all the repairs worked on my car

When I got to class I found out I got a 95% on my first test in my Anat and Phys class

Class didn't have me nodding off today

Class got out an hour and 40 minutes early

I got to come home and relax 

I had time to blog

Today was truly spectacular and the rest of my week is going to be even better :) tomorrow a night with the boy before he goes to work and Saturday baking with the AND everyone comes home Saturday! All those BYU and BYUI people home for the holidays! Including my MARISSA!!! :D I can't wait to see her! I love having her around. :) I can't wait until they move here (I guess if they move here. I'm praying!) I have so many things to be grateful for! I'm so blessed! 

I choose happiness :]

Concussion

This is the second concussion of the year. I keep wondering if this is a wake up call. And as the day went on. I stayed at church, listened to wonderful lessons, felt a very strong spirit, and I even bore my testimony in sacrament meeting today. I want to publically bear my testimony in writing. I know there is a living Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. They are true beings whom we can communicate with through prayer. Through the blessing of the Holy Ghost I can feel the love of my Savior. Especially through the power of priesthood blessings. I have been given so many blessings in the past few years and many of them are for something with my head. I'm surrounded by worthy priesthood holders and I couldn't be more blessed. I made it through church today because of a blessing. I made it through 2012 because of many blessings. I'm grateful for the scriptures. They bring so many answers that I need personally. I know there is a living prophet on the earth today who is here to lead and and guide us. I know that families can be together forever. I know that I was placed with the family I have for so many reasons and I am so grateful for all of them. They are my rocks. I know we are on this earth for a reason. It's hard to be here and to be human. But, it is such a huge blessing. I am so grateful for this life and for the people that have been set in my path. The gospel is real. I'm so grateful for it. I choose happiness. 

3 Unforgettable days

Sometimes when you meet someone you can't forget it. Even if it was just a few days, it could be so much that you can still feel it awhile after. But, for me meetings like this seem to be more one sided. And the one side being mine. It's really heartbreaking when I meet someone and would make so many sacrifices for them. But the problem is they live in another state (specifically Provo). I have prayed so many times about moving to Provo, it's never right. It makes me really sad every time I have gotten a no. I want to be with more righteous people my age. My patriarchal blessing says I will marry a returned missionary, who is he?! Where is he?! He isn't here because I've already gotten to know all the returned missionaries here. Maybe he is still on his mission. But dang. Hurry up bro. You're killing me. I want to be with you right now. Everyone else is married, I'm ready to start that part of my life. Well, as ready as I'll ever be. (clearly this is the rant talking, obviously I could be more ready) I have already passed up a wonderful man I could have married and I won't be doing that again. (Salt gets thrown into the wound every time his wife tries to reconnect with me. Which is a courageous act, but I'm sorry, the moment you decided to date him was the moment you lost me, it's too difficult for me to see them together. Even a little bit to this day.) I have learned my lesson. But I know that he will have to be better than that guy I almost married which honestly will be quite difficult. I want to love and to be loved. I don't want to force anything, but I am ready for the gradual process to begin. I wish he was here now. I wish I could find him today. I want to have this feeling I have for someone I know deeply on an emotional level and have them feel the same way. Is that so difficult? YES. Of course it's difficult! If finding love was easy everyone would be married and would live happily every after! There would never be any divorces or unhappy marriages. Clearly all of these exist, so we (singles) just continue with our awesome lives (and that isn't sarcastic) waiting for someone to change our lives and if we're smart we are seeking someone to change our lives. But, right now. I have no one to seek, and I am content. I won't shoo away any prospects if they were to happen to come about, but I also am not willing to be set up or have anything weird similar to that take place. The last time I decided to do that... yeah... NOT a good decision. Big regrets. But, I have nothing to do except to forget and learn from my mistakes, then keep moving forward. Well, since this went from my confusing unclear feelings about someone I met a few months ago to me being single I actually find these two things connected. No, I'm not waiting for this guy to all of a sudden want to do distance (he has a girlfriend now for goodness sake!) It's just weird because I have feelings for him and I just can't get him out of my head. No one has been able to change that for me yet. I haven't met anyone that struck me as much as he did in just a short 3 days. I just need to calm my thoughts about it and move away from thinking about him. I need to put him out of my head instead of allowing myself to think about him. In the meantime I choose happiness. :) 

Marriage

This is so huge and true! Marriage is not for me.

http://sethadamsmith.com/2013/11/02/marriage-isnt-for-you/

I realize today I'm kind of using my blog as a way to share things similar to facebook.  But, lately I've just hated most everything about facebook and anything truly social. So, I feel like only sharing things on my blog without the "likes" and the comments on everything even though I still want comments on my blog. I've also realized that probably isn't going to happen. Anyway, one day when I get married, it won't be for me it will be about the other person. Someone that I care about more than anyone else. I haven't found that love yet and I can't wait until I find it. But, I also have a feeling I'll be waiting at least a year and a half. Of course this is a random number ;) I choose happiness. 

SMILES

SMILES :) :) :) :) :) :) I love music, The Wizard of Oz, and this mashup! :) I choose happiness. 

Running

Smile Sundays! I love running and I'm so grateful for it! I've ran two half marathons in a month and one being unplanned. It wasn't easy, but it was absolutely rewarding :) running with people that also love to run also makes me happy. :) I'm so grateful that I am well and healthy enough to run. That I have strong legs and a tough mind that gets me through running. Running is 90% mental and the rest is physical. 

Running Thoughts

Well, I run a half marathon in a few days. So, I've been running a lot. Yesterday I had a long run and my ipod died only about halfway through the run. So, I had a lot of time to think. This morning as well. I was thinking about high school. I was thinking about all that I've been through since then and how I pictured myself as a 21 year old. The way my life is right now is not anywhere near where I thought it would be. I've been through  a lot of things since then and I am not anywhere near where I wanted to be or where I thought I would be. But, where I am is happy. My life is great in it's own ways. Sometimes I look back and wish that people that were a part of my life were still a part of my life. Then, I think again and think about how much happier I am without them. Sometimes I wish my closest friends were actually around, but then I think about if I were around them how I wouldn't be able to grow and I wouldn't make new connections. I think about where I could be if I lived in Provo. If I accepted that job back in June instead of turning it down. I would obviously be in a completely different place. It's so hard to think. It seems lately my mind doesn't stop. I have been trying so hard to stop thinking but it doesn't help.
A huge contributor in my thoughts, facebook. What a curse sometimes. People putting up the best parts of their lives and making their lives seem absolutely perfect. When, from experience, their lives aren't perfect. But, that's what facebook is all about putting a face on your life. And sometimes it is so hard to see people happy knowing they don't miss me as much as I miss having them in my life. But, I am happy too. I'll figure out where I am supposed to be and what I am supposed to be doing in the future eventually. For now I know I am exactly where I'm supposed to be and doing exactly what I need to be doing. :) I choose happiness.
Oh and.. this album... I got it and I LOVE ME SOME GOOD OL' JACK! :)